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    <title>Me, I&amp;#8217;m A Part Of Your Circle Of Friends&amp;#8230;</title>
    <published>2013-11-07T00:45:21Z</published>
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    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;We live in the age of social media.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Social media isn&amp;#8217;t actually a recent thing, at least as we count time online.  Back in the digital Pleistocene, when i first got on the net&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn1-4672" title="late 1980′s"&gt;1&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;, social media was called Usenet.  Usenet was made of of a  hierarchy of &amp;#8220;newsgroups&amp;#8221;, each devoted to a specific topic.  if you were interested in science fiction books, you could hang out in rec.arts.sf.written.  If you were a perl programmer, you could hang out in comp.lang.perl.  If you wanted to  make snarky comments about other peoples .sig files, you went to alt.fan.warlord.&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn2-4672" title="It’s a long story."&gt;2&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;  There was a nearly inexhaustible number of alt.sex.* groups where you could get your specific freak on. Pretty much whatever you wanted to talk about, there was a group devoted to talking about it, and if there wasn&amp;#8217;t, you could make one with a small amount of effort.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Usenet was a decentralised service, spread across thousands of machines on the Internet.  Messages posted to one news server would propogate to all the others, usually in pretty quick time.  Since the messages were stored on the server, it didn&amp;#8217;t clutter up your email box the way a mailing list was.  (And back in those magical days, that was pretty much all that cluttered up your e-mail box, since spam hadn&amp;#8217;t yet really become a thing.)  Over time, the more active newsgroups developed their own cultures and social norms, and became communities in their own right.&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn3-4672" title="Parallel to all of this, services like Compuserve and Prodigy had their own walled gardens which fostered similar online communities."&gt;3&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;In the early 1990s, with the advent of the World Wide Web, new forums began to pop up.  Websites with their own comments threads began to proliferate, and both single and multi-topic web forums began to pop up here and there.  Usenet had a lot of people still using it, though, and many preferred to continue having their conversations there.  Most web forums didn&amp;#8217;t have a strong sense of community, partly by virtue of being newer and not yet having developed the sort of cultural inertia that eventually coalesces into social bonds, but also partly because most web forums were a poor place for the kind of person-to-person interactivity that dominated the better parts of Usenet.  Sooner or later, someone would figure out the right set of tools, and create a semblance of that on the web.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;That person turned out to be Brad Fitzpatrick, who started a site called &lt;a href="http://www.livejournal.com/" target="_blank"&gt;LiveJournal&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;LiveJournal wasn&amp;#8217;t the first blogging platform, but it was the first to really put all the pieces together to create a real, broad online community.  Unlike Usenet, where groups were defined by interest, blogs were inherently personal.   You could write about whatever was important to you at the time, and not worry if it was on topic.  This was &lt;em&gt;your&lt;/em&gt; space.  If you had friends who were also blogging on LiveJournal, you could follow them,&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn4-4672" title="“Friend” them, in the argot of the site.  A term which has continued to be problematic in social media ever since."&gt;4&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;  and LJ would construct an easy to read digest of all the posts your friends had made.  Comments left by one person following your blog might elicit an answer from someone else following it.  Someone might decide to &amp;#8216;friend&amp;#8221; you simply because you had a friend in common and they liked the sort of comments you left.   Topical communities began to form, kitting together groups of people with common interests.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;For the folks on the more social areas of Usenet, like alt.polyamory or rec.arts.sf.fandom, this was a little annoying.  More and more, people were writing in their own spaces and not engaging the group.  Expressing surprise at a bit of missed news was likely to elicit a response of &amp;#8220;Oh, I wrote about that in my LJ.&amp;#8221;   Even in real life, in several of my social circles if you weren&amp;#8217;t on LiveJournal, you weren&amp;#8217;t really plugged in to the conversation.  I remember telling a fellow Atlanta filker about some bit of news involving some other filkers, and he expressed surprise because he hadn&amp;#8217;t heard about it.  I told him I had read about it on LJ, and he said &amp;#8220;But I don&amp;#8217;t do LJ!&amp;#8221; and I said &amp;#8220;And that&amp;#8217;s why you hadn&amp;#8217;t heard about it.&amp;#8221;&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn5-4672" title="I think participating or not participating in a particular social forum is entirely one’s choice. I do think it’s a bit unreasonable to refuse on principle to join a particular social forum and then complain that you miss the things which are happening there."&gt;5&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;As LiveJournal participation grew over the course of the early 2000s, Usenet participation waned.  At the time, i was still active on both, and the growing quiet on newsgroups was both noticeable and often commented upon by those of us who were still there.  Reluctantly, many hardcore holdouts started LiveJournal accounts of their own, if only to follow what was going on with their friends who increasingly put their time and energy into posting there.  Some communities shifted entirely to the web, succumbing to the overwhelming gravity the new central social hub was exerting on the conversation.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;While this was the status quo for a number of years, new attempts at creating the next social hub came and went constantly. Most of them are footnotes&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn6-4672" title="Orkut"&gt;6&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt; and barely remembered&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn7-4672" title="Buzz"&gt;7&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;, or looked promising&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn8-4672" title="MySpace"&gt;8&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt; but were pushed out by more popular rivals&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn9-4672" title="Friendster"&gt;9&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;.  With the exception of MySpace, most of them failed the &amp;#8220;what&amp;#8217;s it for?&amp;#8221; test.  They weren&amp;#8217;t necessarily awful, but they didn&amp;#8217;t appear to solve any problems presented by the current dominant platform.&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn10-4672" title="And most of the really serious problems with LiveJournal were being solved by virtue of the LiveJournal codebase being open source, which meant anyone could start up an exact replica of it and compete. The most successful of these was Dreamwidth, but there were at least a half-dozen active LJ clones at one time."&gt;10&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;But since 2008, several new platforms have taken center stage.  Facebook, Twitter,  and Tumblr have developed huge communities, and Google+ and Pinterest certainly have their partisans. LiveJournal of late feels a lot like Usenet did ten years ago.   But unlike the Usenet to Livejournal migration, the new landscape is more fractured, with each new community containing a subset of the old. While some people manage to maintain an active presence on more than one platform, the vast majority of even those people have one service that is their primary hangout and others that they dip in and out of as the mood strikes them.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;This is, ultimately, both good and bad.  The five major networks currently vying for social bandwidth deliver very different experiences to the one another.  If you think brevity is the soul of wit and like your conversations to come in rapid, short bursts, you can make Twitter your place and have a great time hanging with the other Twitterati.   if you&amp;#8217;re more of a kinetic, visual magpie who primarily wants to see cool things and pass them around, you&amp;#8217;ll probably tumble for Tumblr.  Pinterest is great for&amp;#8230;.whatever the heck Pinterest is for.&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn11-4672" title="I don’t mean to be snarky.  I really don’t know."&gt;11&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;  And Facebook sits atop the mountain, the vast ruler of all it surveys largely by default.  Facebook has the most users almost entirely because it has the most users.  I know many people (myself not least)who say &amp;#8216;I don&amp;#8217;t like Facebook as a platform, but it&amp;#8217;s where the people I want to interact with are, so that&amp;#8217;s where I am.&amp;#8221;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The bad part about the current landscape is that the conversation is fractured.  People on one platform don&amp;#8217;t interact with people on the others.  The post you are reading will have been either posted or linked in several places.  People who see it on LiveJournal will likely comment there.  People who see it on Facebook will likely comment there.  Someone might respond to it on Twitter, and some might comment on the original blog itself.  And I&amp;#8217;ll see all those comments and react to them in place, but &amp;#8212; vitally &amp;#8211; &lt;em&gt;they won&amp;#8217;t see each other.&lt;/em&gt;  Joey on Facebook will never see the comment that Rachel leaves on Livejournal, and neither of them will see the comment that Krista makes on Twitter.  No one has the amount of social bandwidth to monitor all of these places at once.   Most of us can&amp;#8217;t handle more than one.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;That&amp;#8217;s not a tragedy.  But it is a missed opportunity.  We now have so many ways to connect that we sometimes miss the chance to connect.  And that makes me at least a little bit sad.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;hr class="footnotes"&gt;&lt;ol class="footnotes"&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;late 1980&amp;#8242;s&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf1-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 1 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;It&amp;#8217;s a long story.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf2-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 2 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;Parallel to all of this, services like Compuserve and Prodigy had their own walled gardens which fostered similar online communities.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf3-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 3 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;#8220;Friend&amp;#8221; them, in the argot of the site.  A term which has continued to be problematic in social media ever since.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf4-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 4 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;I think participating or not participating in a particular social forum is entirely one&amp;#8217;s choice. I do think it&amp;#8217;s a bit unreasonable to refuse on principle to join a particular social forum and then complain that you miss the things which are happening there.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf5-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 5 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;Orkut&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf6-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 6 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;Buzz&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf7-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 7 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;MySpace&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf8-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 8 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;Friendster&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf9-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 9 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;And most of the really serious problems with LiveJournal were being solved by virtue of the LiveJournal codebase being open source, which meant anyone could start up an exact replica of it and compete. The most successful of these was Dreamwidth, but there were at least a half-dozen active LJ clones at one time.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf10-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 10 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;I don&amp;#8217;t mean to be snarky.  I really don&amp;#8217;t know.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf11-4672" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 11 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ol&gt;&lt;p style="text-align: right"&gt;&lt;small&gt;Mirrored from &lt;a href="http://www.autographedcat.com/2013/11/06/me-im-a-part-of-your-circle-of-friends/" title="Read Original Post"&gt;Home of the Autographed Cat&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/small&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=autographedcat&amp;ditemid=331851" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <title>People Are Strange When You&amp;#8217;re A Stranger</title>
    <published>2013-11-03T03:47:46Z</published>
    <updated>2013-11-03T04:18:46Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;In a community I spend a lot of time hanging out over on Facebook, someone posted the other day:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="padding-left: 30px;"&gt;&lt;em&gt;&amp;#8220;So you people are cool and hip. right?? Why is Bitstrips a thing????&amp;#8221;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;For those of you who haven&amp;#8217;t seen these, &lt;a title="Bitstrips" href="http://www.bitstrips.com/" target="_blank"&gt;Bitstrips&lt;/a&gt; is an app that lets you create a cartoon avatar of yourself, and then caption various one-panel cartoons featuring you and your friends.  It&amp;#8217;s basically a digital version of &lt;a title="Colorforms" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Colorforms" target="_blank"&gt;Colorforms&lt;/a&gt; &lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn1-4635" title="They were these little boxed playsets that had a scene on them and little vinyl figures you could arrange on it. It was treated so that the vinyl figures would stick to the backboard, so you could arrange all sorts of little ersatz dioramas. I had a bunch of different ones, mostly comic-book related."&gt;1&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt; crossed with one of those mail order-storybooks you could get with your child&amp;#8217;s name printed in them.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;As memes go, this one is pretty innocuous&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn2-4635" title="Who knows, maybe it’ll encourage someone to say “I’m really enjoying this, but the limitations of the form frustrate me” and they learn to draw and become the next great cartoonist. Or maybe they just use it to create a lot of corny jokes to amuse themselves and their friends."&gt;2&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;, and easy enough to flip past or even block if you&amp;#8217;re not inclined to see them.  A couple of comments in the thread suggested they found them annoying, and one said the ones they had seen were a bit &amp;#8220;creepy&amp;#8221;, which may reflect their friends more than the app itself&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn3-4635" title="And led me to wonder aloud whether they were suggesting that creepy stuff can’t be a “thing”"&gt;3&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;. But one comment really threw me a bit.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="padding-left: 30px;"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I think some of the people that use them think they are funny and the rest are cartoonist wannabes thinking they are being creative and refusing to believe they are premade templates. I blocked them. I hope I am not sounding mean, that&amp;#8217;s not my intention, I just think real cartoonists work hard enough as it is.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;There&amp;#8217;s an awful lot of odd assumptions being made in this comment, each of which is probably worth dissecting on its own, but the one I want to hone in on is the central animus behind it, which is:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p style="padding-left: 30px;"&gt;There are people having fun in a manner I don&amp;#8217;t understand!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;This is a pretty common thing lately, and I hate it.  It&amp;#8217;s an enormous world with an infinite variety of things to see and do, and not everything appeals to everyone, not least because not everything is FOR everyone.  There&amp;#8217;s an element of sour grapes to the whole attitude:  &amp;#8221;I don&amp;#8217;t like this, and I don&amp;#8217;t see why anyone else should have a good time.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;A manifestation of this that happens several times a year around big pop culture events that I like to call &amp;#8220;Clamouring Indifference.&amp;#8221;  You&amp;#8217;ll see it on your social media every time the Super Bowl happens, or the Oscars are handed out, or the finale of a show like &lt;em&gt;Breaking Bad&lt;/em&gt; is aired.  Amidst all the people excitingly talking about the event, there will be a handful of people who will feel compelled to post about how they don&amp;#8217;t care about the event, how terrifically bored by the event they are, and how they wish everyone would stop talking about it.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The truth is, though, that these people do care about the event.  They care deeply and passionately about it.  It&amp;#8217;s very &lt;em&gt;important&lt;/em&gt; for you to know how much they don&amp;#8217;t like it.  It doesn&amp;#8217;t take 500 words to say &amp;#8216;I don&amp;#8217;t care.&amp;#8221;  I doesn&amp;#8217;t even take three.   The real message being communicated is the same as the comment above:  &amp;#8221;Hey, stop enjoying that thing I don&amp;#8217;t enjoy.&amp;#8221;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;We live in an incredible age, where we can pick and choose whatever entertainment we want to consume, at any time, on demand.&lt;sup&gt;&lt;a href="#fn4-4635" title="At least within certain levels of privilege, but I have a feeling the people who aren’t able to access on-demand entertainment are also not loudly professing their profound lack of interest in that entertainment on social media.  I could be wrong."&gt;4&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;  If you&amp;#8217;re not interested in the college handegg tournament or the Tony Awards or American Idol, then go watch something else. or start up a different conversation in your space and see who comes to participate in it.   But don&amp;#8217;t waste your time and everyone else&amp;#8217;s by writing an essay about how  you don&amp;#8217;t care about the thing everyone else is having a perfectly good time enjoying.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;hr class="footnotes"&gt;&lt;ol class="footnotes"&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;They were these little boxed playsets that had a scene on them and little vinyl figures you could arrange on it. It was treated so that the vinyl figures would stick to the backboard, so you could arrange all sorts of little ersatz dioramas. I had a bunch of different ones, mostly comic-book related.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf1-4635" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 1 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;Who knows, maybe it&amp;#8217;ll encourage someone to say &amp;#8220;I&amp;#8217;m really enjoying this, but the limitations of the form frustrate me&amp;#8221; and they learn to draw and become the next great cartoonist. Or maybe they just use it to create a lot of corny jokes to amuse themselves and their friends.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf2-4635" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 2 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;And led me to wonder aloud whether they were suggesting that creepy stuff can&amp;#8217;t be a &amp;#8220;thing&amp;#8221;&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf3-4635" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 3 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;p&gt;At least within certain levels of privilege, but I have a feeling the people who aren&amp;#8217;t able to access on-demand entertainment are also not loudly professing their profound lack of interest in that entertainment on social media.  I could be wrong.&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="#rf4-4635" class="backlink" title="Jump back to footnote 4 in the text."&gt;&amp;#8617;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ol&gt;&lt;p style="text-align: right"&gt;&lt;small&gt;Mirrored from &lt;a href="http://www.autographedcat.com/2013/11/02/people-are-strange-when-youre-a-stranger/" title="Read Original Post"&gt;Home of the Autographed Cat&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/small&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=autographedcat&amp;ditemid=330906" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <title>...And never worry about the fall</title>
    <published>2013-01-02T20:17:43Z</published>
    <updated>2013-01-02T21:17:27Z</updated>
    <category term="moving"/>
    <category term="musing"/>
    <category term="life"/>
    <dw:music>The Flash Girls - Knickerbocker Line</dw:music>
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    <content type="html">Earlier today in the #frogpants chat room, Malynor (my 19th favourite Canadian), asked how I was doing on my first real day of unemployment, and commented that planned unemployment was probably less stressful.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I said "Well, planned unemployment is slightly less stressful in that it's, well, planned and I have resources set aside to deal with it.  But it's still weird for much the same reason skydiving is.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Because of your careful preparations and precautions, you have a strong belief that everything is going to work out fine at the end of the fall, but you still can't quite shake the fear that you just stepped out of a perfectly good aeroplane."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=autographedcat&amp;ditemid=321792" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <title>Sleeping on a planter at the Port Authority...</title>
    <published>2012-10-25T02:35:31Z</published>
    <updated>2012-10-25T02:35:31Z</updated>
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    <dw:music>Fountains Of Wayne - Bright Future In Sales</dw:music>
    <dw:mood>curious</dw:mood>
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    <content type="html">I'm often amused to see what Twitter bots follow you based on what you post there.  All manner of random commercial enterprises have suddenly followed me after a casual(and often completely devoid of context) reference to a product, place, or activity.  Tourism sites, personal trainers, rap DJs...its like a bizarre form of bingo where no one ever wins anything.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This happens to a lesser degree on Livejournal, particularly if you haven't disabled anonymous comments.  But it's fairly uncommon, at least enough so that I never really gave it a lot of thought, until &lt;a href="http://autographedcat.livejournal.com/321277.html"&gt;this particular post&lt;/a&gt; began to attract the spambots.  I've deleted at least five in the last couple of weeks.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I wonder what there is about my amusing but inconsequential exchange with a drugstore clerk has attracted so much interest from the sub-sentient crawlers of the blogosphere?  Most of them seem to be trying to sell me knock-off designer clothing or boots, which makes me suspect it was the paragraph about looking for vests.  But their persistence is puzzling.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=autographedcat&amp;ditemid=320686" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2009-05-01:147329:320450</id>
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    <title>So I Turned Myself To Face Me</title>
    <published>2012-10-23T21:47:22Z</published>
    <updated>2012-10-23T21:47:22Z</updated>
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    <dw:music>Joan Jett - Bad Reputation</dw:music>
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    <content type="html">Sometimes, you realise something about yourself so fundamentally obvious in hindsight that you're not sure how it took you so long for it to occur to you.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I've been struggling a bit with my depression in recent weeks.  Given the amount of slow-motion change in my life right now, that's hardly surprising, but today, while thinking about a comment thread yesterday in &lt;span style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://osewalrus.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif' alt='[livejournal.com profile] ' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' width='17' height='17'/&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://osewalrus.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;osewalrus&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;'s Facebook page, something clicked in my brain that clarified to me why I've felt so unsettled.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have two strong behavioural methods for temporarily punching up my mood:  eating and buying things.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Neither of which I can really do right now.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm trying hard to get back on my fitness plan, which means I have a careful budget with regards to what and how much I can eat in a given day.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm saving up money to move across country in 3 months and need to be prepared to weather out a period of unemployment, so I can't really shop for much of anything I don't actually require.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It could be argued that neither of this are strictly healthy ways of dealing with stress and depression, but I've been me for a long time, and I know they both work, at least in the short term.  And right now, for a variety for reasons, I'm denied their outlet.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Not sure what to do with this information presently, but there you have it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=autographedcat&amp;ditemid=320450" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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