So I Turned Myself To Face Me
Oct. 23rd, 2012 05:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
autographedcatSometimes, you realise something about yourself so fundamentally obvious in hindsight that you're not sure how it took you so long for it to occur to you.
I've been struggling a bit with my depression in recent weeks. Given the amount of slow-motion change in my life right now, that's hardly surprising, but today, while thinking about a comment thread yesterday in![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
osewalrus's Facebook page, something clicked in my brain that clarified to me why I've felt so unsettled.
I have two strong behavioural methods for temporarily punching up my mood: eating and buying things.
Neither of which I can really do right now.
I'm trying hard to get back on my fitness plan, which means I have a careful budget with regards to what and how much I can eat in a given day.
I'm saving up money to move across country in 3 months and need to be prepared to weather out a period of unemployment, so I can't really shop for much of anything I don't actually require.
It could be argued that neither of this are strictly healthy ways of dealing with stress and depression, but I've been me for a long time, and I know they both work, at least in the short term. And right now, for a variety for reasons, I'm denied their outlet.
Not sure what to do with this information presently, but there you have it.
I've been struggling a bit with my depression in recent weeks. Given the amount of slow-motion change in my life right now, that's hardly surprising, but today, while thinking about a comment thread yesterday in
osewalrus's Facebook page, something clicked in my brain that clarified to me why I've felt so unsettled.I have two strong behavioural methods for temporarily punching up my mood: eating and buying things.
Neither of which I can really do right now.
I'm trying hard to get back on my fitness plan, which means I have a careful budget with regards to what and how much I can eat in a given day.
I'm saving up money to move across country in 3 months and need to be prepared to weather out a period of unemployment, so I can't really shop for much of anything I don't actually require.
It could be argued that neither of this are strictly healthy ways of dealing with stress and depression, but I've been me for a long time, and I know they both work, at least in the short term. And right now, for a variety for reasons, I'm denied their outlet.
Not sure what to do with this information presently, but there you have it.
